Eric,

Sunny days seem to hurt the most lately I remember your smile and your face as we would walk together. I had a dream about you the other night and the way you would always give me a big hug and tell me everything would be alright. Its funny cause even now I feel that your still here for me. There are some days I feel I can just feel you next to me and I know that even now your still up there looking out for all the people you cared so much about. But I know I'll see you agian someday and that I have faith because everything happens for a reason. Right. I just am so grateful to know that even now your your still here giving me hugs in my dreams when I really need them. Those big bear hugs that just sucked the air out of you. Its like your helping to take away the hurt. I just hope you know that there is a place deep in my heart where you will always be. I wish I could of had more time with you, that I had known you for far longer but regardless I will always hold you dear and keep you in my prayer each night. God knows how I miss you and I know no one can ever take your place. So hun i just hope you know how much you changed everyone around you and that even today you are helping the people that you loved. I miss you I love you.

Megan

hey hunnie,

i have been sitting in frount of the computer screen for 20 min now just looking and trying to grasp the idea that ur gone. i dont want it to be real i cant let myself believe it because then it will be real. it took me untill last month to delete your numbers out of my phone. i called ur cell i dont kno how many times. i got freaked out when i rang one time.

i jsut dont kno wat to do. its not like i can call you or come see you and ask you wat i should do. u used to fix everything for me. but u cant fix this.

i was thinking about the time that me and katie came up to see you and john. we went in the woods to a bon fire spot then we sent john and katie to go gat gas. she was so mad aboiut wat u did to the hood of her car!!! lol and she was mad bout the way u drove her car, but i told her we were having a discussion and u were taking it out on the jeep.

i think we got a small fire goin. then we went to the gaS STATION AT 3:00 and katie broke johns e brake... that was funny.

you wanted us to stay so bad u wouldnt even say good bye to me.

then we came back down the next weekend and couldnt find the spot we went to the week before. 

and the time when katie and i came out at like 1 in the morning and hung out in ur room.

and i was also thinking about when u would call me and wed stay on the phone for hours sometimes talkin sometimes not sometimes id be listing to u play your games. yellin through ur head set. i think about all this all the time. if i hear a song watch tv drive down the st i could be doing ne thing and something will make me think bout you.

just looking at kaite makes me think bout you.i love you so much and i miss you so much!!!!

always thinking!!!

i love you

xoxxoxox 

      There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about you or a moment that I had with you.  Driving home late at night with all the windows down the radio blastin and the fresh sweet smell of summer in the air I remeber those late night waking phone calls that always made my day even if I had to get up in a few hours.  Those calls where you would sing and play your guitar.  Those calls to say "Nikkieeeeeeeee I'm comming over"  LoL    Or the ones that went "Mom can Nikkie come over?   PLEASEEEEEEEE"   And of course  "Nikkie Come Get Me"  LOL

        Loosing you was so hard for me and for all of us.  I know your out there somewhere watching us.  Saying WTH are you doing, just shut-up, stop being stupid and all those lovley things you'd say lol

        There is one moment I find running through my head all the time over and over again.  The night it all happend I sat around the house debating weather to call you or not to call you.  Leave you be or bother you.  and all the time I can't help but think that if I had called you would you still be here today would you be around for those late night calls and random visits. I also replay the phone call I got from meagan just before I left for a job at work.  The phone call that changed everything.  A phone call that should have never been if only I had made the phone call I wanted to make the night before. 

Why'd you always have to be right?  I never thought u'd leave us so young and so soon, and I'm sorry Eric I know youtold me never to cry over you but It happend I cry for you all the time and I hope you understand how much we all miss you and hope to see you in the end.  You better be waiting for me at those perlly gates.  LOL

Love You Much and Forever,

                        Nikkie

 eric im sorry its a day late i wasnt near a computer yesterday. but happy birthday. i miss you,  i figured youd be happy to kno that katie and i are talking again. well i love you and will be back to visit

hey eric,

katie an i were talking the other day about when we used to go out there and visit you. one time especially, when we went 4 wheeling in the middle of the woods and u were riving katies car. it was so full of mud and then we couldnt get the fire started. and wehn we went to the gas station b4 we left and katie broke jons e brake. he was so mad!! i remember you wouldnt even sat good bye to me when we were leaving cuz u wanted us to stay.

or the time when me and joey came out and u bumped in to joey so hard he went flying over the hood of my car like 10 feet lol. we had a lot of good times. and u and jon had good times scaring me, joey and katie. joey misses u also. we love you and miss you. and we hold our memories of you close in our hearts.

Words can't describe how hard it is to think
You were taken from us far too soon
Now our hearts are playing a different tune
We can't accept the fact that you're gone
But we all shall live on strong
You'll live in our hearts for the rest of time
Where your vision will always be sublime
And although your life was taken away
You become an angel that will smile our way

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Where has
my best friend gone
the one that was always there
the one i depended on

with everyday that goes by
i feel we drift apart
further and further away
but forever in my heart

please come back to me
and don't leave me alone
i feel so empty
i feel so cold

i love you i do
with everything i am
but please come back to me
and hold me where i stand

hey babe, i cant believe its been a year already since you've been gone it seems like just yesterday you were over my house with your quad. im sorry i havent been writing lately i feel really bad. but as you should know from watching me from above that i have another person in my life, hallie. shes so beautiful and shes getting so big now, she just turned 1 month and is now weighing 9lbs 13oz. from the day she was born i have wished and still wish that you two could meet i know she would love you as much as i do. i hope that when she is dreaming that you can come visit her and meet her, and if you could do me a favor too and watch her like you watch all of us. for the four days i spent in the hospital all i thought of was you and wished that you would have been there by my side. 
    sunday is coming up and when were all inside that church i dont know if i will be able to hold it together i have been dreading this 1year for so long it just not the same with out you. eric you were just a big part of my life and  i dont know if it will ever get easier for me. having hallie in my life now adds to it because all i could wish for right now is to see you even if it was for just one day, or just one hour and for you to meet her, that is what i dream for every day. im sorry for crying right now while i write this too you but as i hold her in my arms right now i just cant stop thinking that i cant just call you for you to come over and see her. having the realationship with your parents and your family helps me to make it through each day and with out them i dont know what i would do. so for on this 13th please send them some kind of message that your hear with us. i love you eric so much!!! xoxo's

There are so many memories of the times me and Eric shared. where do i start? sitting at my house out side in the garage listening to slipknot head banging and just talking like we always did. hearing his funny stories and his infectious laugh at the beginning, middle, and end of every one he told us would bring a smile to everyones face. i do miss that so much. his laugh would fill a room of sadness and make it a room full of smiling faces of friends and family. I remember when i went to his house and we got BBQ chicken pizza and i asked him if he could pick the chicken off my piece because i didnt want to eat the chicken (i was trying to be a vegitarian!! ha) and he says, " are you kidding me?? its chicken eaaattttt itttttttt!" so we got into a fight over it. wrestling and tickling. laughing so hard tears were coming out of my eyes. that was a great time, i think about that day so much, but i dont cry, i smile because you dont have to always think, "Erics gone and hes never coming back". even though that is reality, you MUST always think of the good times, the great memories, the stories, the laughs, the times when he would come to talk at the most random times if it was 5:30 in the morning or 12 at night, he would always be there. but other times reality hits ou hard and you just break down and cry until theres nothing left. thats just what happens when you lose someone you love dearly, you cant help it, you cant stop your emotions from taking over. but when i think of eric i think that hes always going to be there for us, he wont ever forget us, and im sure that no one will ever forget him, he is an unforgettable person. i love you so much Eric i want you to know that. i will never forget you.
to his family:
I cared so much about your son, nephew, grandson and cousin. its a hard thing to go through and i understand completely, i know what you must be going through right now and it hurts, it hurts a lot. Eric was one of the best people i knew and he would always be there, he always will. so to his family, i send my deepest sympathy and love. To Rosemary and David, you brought a beautiful son into this world, his time here ended too quickly and its a tough thing to have to go through. he will always be there you may not see it but he'll always be in your hearts and everyone he made an impact on.
lots of love